I couldn't do it today

I've been working out long enough that I have a pretty good sense of when my body can be pushed more and when it needs to recover. The alarm went off at a little after 5am this morning and after about 10 minutes I knew that I'd reached the point where I was in danger of injuring myself.

I'm not actually _in_ the army. I'm not an 18-year-old recruit. And if I seriously pull or tear something then I'm out for weeks and left with an ongoing problem. So I didn't go.

Which pissed Ernie off. Is there a possibility that I'm rationalizing what is in fact just fear of being totally overwhelmed physically again? Sure. But I think it makes the most sense to go with my experience and intuition this week and then push myself to get through all four days the second week.

I have no intention of quitting, in fact I think it's a great program. I believe it's going to be really good for me, for both of us. I just don't want to be stupid about it.

Now I have to see if I can get the swelling around my eye to go down....

Rainy day

I worked from home today, partially because of my black eye, and the colors in the garden were just great. I have a very mild fetish for smoking in the rain (years ago I used to smoke cigarettes in the shower - don't ask...) so got a photo of that. Two very different styles.

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